3/5/2023
Karen
I was supposed to go to Tuesday's revival night with my women's group. I had a bunch of excuses why I wasn't going. )I'm tired, It's cold out. It's dark. etc). As I sat eating my dinner on Thursday, God kept nudging me to go. I got to Branford and soon saw that there was no parking so I parked in Walmart's parking lot. When I got inside the building, there were no seats. I said to God, "Really? I drove here on a cold, dark, dreary night to stand on my feet after teaching all day?" As soon as I said that to Him, I saw a friend from a previous church who said she had an extra seat. Not a coincidence.
The whole evening was filled with such hope- a hope that the next generation would listen, follow, and obey God- that all of the violence, destruction, war, fear, sickness would be met with peace, revival, peace, and healing. As I was standing singing and worshipping, I opened my eyes and noticed that the prayer team was praying over everyone but me. I was standing by myself and thought "How is it possible to be in a room full of people and still feel invisible and alone?" I decided to leave. If I was going to be alone, I might as well be home under the covers where it's warm and safe. As I was walking out, Michele, a friend of my son's, stopped me and asked if I had been prayed over. When I said no she said that I couldn't leave until she prayed over me. As she prayed peace over me, I heard God telling me "I see you. I love you. You are mine." For those of you who don't know my story, I have wrestled with my worth after my divorce 8 years ago, I felt like I was unlovable, invisible, and not enough. I had known my worth in my head but my heart wasn't quite getting the message. I was overwhelmed by His love for me and those feelings/lies that I have been believing washed away in my tears as she prayed over me! Thank You, Jesus for loving me, seeing me, hearing me, and pursuing me!